illbthere4you

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 18:41:47 GMT

LaRocque
Mink
Dean
Mrs. Gordon
Shweig
Karr

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 02:14:37 GMT

im so lost right now. eveything just happened so fast. No i feel really emotionless. I hate not being able to feel anything and thats exactly what i feel like. it doesnt reall make sense but neither does anything else. i dont know whats gonna happen so i just want to say i love you guys so much.

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 01:57:30 GMT

It feels good to be back in my routine. I go to the gym everyday sometimes twice a day so when i went on vacation i only got to go twice. It was a big change. But now im back into my rountine and it feels good. The gym is possibly the best thing i got into this year. It helps relieve stress and keep me fit. I love it so much. I have been really busy lately so i havent got to update but thats okay because not much is going on. I started rding again too. I hadnt been on a my horse in like a month it felt so weird because i normally ride atleast twice a week. Everything finally is getting back to normal and its nice.

I was suposed to go to the movies tonight but i didnt. i wont get into that. but im going to go like next monday or something so its all good. I cant write to much because real world austin comes on in five minutes

Oh yeah i got my cartilige pierced again. It kept healing because i had to take it out for cheerleading but now i dont so after it being pierced for the fourth time i think it will finally stay in

<3 Ashley lynn

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 01:58:52 GMT

a n g e r section.
Do you have a quick temper?: not in my opinion, i keep it to myself when im mad
What do you do when you're mad?:i go somewhere that i can be by myself
What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?:hmm yell and slam doors, thats about it.
If you can take back time, would you have never done this?: i dont really have anything else to do
Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: i dont think so
Ever physically hurt someone when you were mad?: i dont think so
Do you curse when you're mad?: yes

c r y i n g section.
When was the last time you really cried your heart out?: yesterday
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: yes
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: yes
Do you cry when you get an injury?: if it is really bad
Do certain songs make you cry? yes
Can you make yourself cry?: yes

p a i n section.
What's the hardest thing you've ever had to go through?: losing someone i loved
What's the worst thing you've done to yourself?: lots but i think its pretty
What's the worst thing you've done to somebody else?: hurt their feelings not physical
Ever had a painful break up?: yes
What about the old 'pain for pleasure'?: i love it
How depressed can you get?: pretty depressed.
do you inflict pain on yourself?: yes

h a p p y section.
Are you normally a happy person?: sometimes
What can make you happy?: family friends, love
Do you wish you were happier?: yes
What makes you the happiest?: when everythings okay
Is being happy overrated?: no i wish i was
What about being with your friends: does that make you happy?: yes
Can music make you happy?: yes

l o v e section.
How many times have you had your heart broken?: once...twice?
Do you still have feelings for any of your old significant others?: i still love them but not like that
Have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd die for them?: i think so
Did you ever love a girl, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' as a reply?: no and if you mean guy, no
Ever loved someone so much, it hurt and made you cry?: yes
Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?: yes and it made me so happy
Ever stopped a relationship because they didn't say 'i love you'?: no

h a t e section.
Who do you actually hate?: i try not to hate anyone
Ever made a hit list?: no but sounds like something i would have done in first grade
Have you ever been on a hit list?: ive never really heard of a "hit list"
You a mean bully?: no
you hate any one that breaks your heart?: no but it hurts
you hate George Bush?: no

me section.
Is your self-esteem extremely low?: not all the time
Do you believe in yourself?: sometimes
People say they think you are pretty, do you deny you are? yes
are you one that thinks they're ugly, dumb, and fat?: i think i could always be skinnier
Ever wanted to kill yourself because you thought you weren't good enough?: not kill my self but hurt myself
Are you happy with who you are?: sometimes
Do you wish you can be someone else?: sometimes i wish i could get out of my skin not neccessarily be someone else

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 14:47:02 GMT

Wow i cant believe im leaving for vacation TODAY! im SO excited! but first i would like to wish the lovely CJ a happy birthday! And hope Lauren Jackie and Mollie a great time in tennesse and at camp.

Everything has been so crazy between packing and saying goodbye and taking care of my animals but its finally time to leave! Im only gonna be gone for a week but its nice to get away and take a break from everything for a week. Well i hope nothing to exciting happens while im gone and i will see all of you in a week

P.S. My cell will be on the entire time so call me if you want to talk.

<3 Ashley lynn

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 22:03:14 GMT

Im leaving for Crystal Beach in two days! Hell yeah bitch! I cant wait its gonna be so much fun. Just hangin out and meet new people. I cant think of a better way to spend part of the summer. I will miss you guys too! I think getting away from it all will help clear my head, im better already just thinking about it. Anyways i hope everyone is having a great summer, mine got out to a sucky start but im doing okay now. I cant believe school is gonna be starting in like a month, it seems like we just got out. It will be nice to see my friends everyday again but i hope this year isnt as drama filled as last year. Alot of people will be leaving to different high schools so we wont have time to fight. Well i have to go pack for crystal beach!! I will have my cell on so make sure you call
<3 Ashley lynn

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 02:02:46 GMT

Im leaving for vacation in a week! Can you believe it?!?! Icant but that also means that i need to hang out with EVERYONE before i go because i will miss you guys.

Today was okay i woke up went to the gym and went to work. Not exactyl the most exciting day of summer but thats okay. I havent talked to anyone on the phone today. Hmm i dont like it. Well im gonna call someone now so i guess ill update later

With <3
Ashley lynn

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 11:56:42 GMT

Well im almost ready to leave for disney!!! Its gonna be so much fun. It will take my mind off things for a little while. And they even have a gym!! YAY! Eh well i have to leave really soon so ill see yall later but ill have my cell on the entire time so ring it up!!
Love
Ashley lynn

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 01:28:48 GMT

First of all i give props to the people who update like 3 times a day because i can barely update once a week. But anyways, I have been really confused lately and im trying my best to sort out my feelings but i just cant figure it out. Maybe it will get better over time or something. I sure how so because it isdriving me insane. I try and focus on one thing and it seems like i cant concentrate or focus on it. It scares me a little bit. I have been going to the gym alot lately. I think it really helps me get rid of alot of stress. If i werent going there i think i would be alot more stressed out and confused. Also the whole buddypic.com thing or whatever were everyone thinks its me. I dont know because i cant see it for some reason but i have never heard of that site so i dont know how it could be unless someone else put it there. Hmm more confusing stuff i have to think about. Ill save that one for the gym tommorrow.
Peace
Ashley lynn

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 03:01:26 GMT

This week might have been the worst week of my entire life. I just lost the two people i cared the most about in the same day. And that was jsut TODAY. It hurts so bad and i dont even no want to do. Im so sorry for causing this type of pain to anyone if i did because it is unbearable. Im not sure what im gonna do next...

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 02:54:58 GMT

I havent updated in a while because i have been really busy. Alot has happened this summer so far and its not even close to being over. I will put some of it on here but ive finally realized livejournals cause drama and drauma over summer is dumb (i dont think it exsists). But i will say that today i joined the gym! This summer i plan to get in shape and be healthy. I hope all of you guys are having a great summer, mine isnt exactly special but i hope your is.Give me a call sometime or something!
<3 Ashley lynn

Sat, 21 May 2005 02:53:12 GMT

I just got back from my brothers graduation. Wow it was amazing, i cant believe he will be leaving soon. Im gonna miss him so much. It also made me realize that after we are seniors we will probally never see these people again so there is no use wasting time over getting angry. This year has gone by so fast. Its pretty much over and i never got to do some of the things i wanted to and say some of the things i wanted to say. This year has been dramatic but it has made me change so much. I love most of you with all my heart and some of with with all my heart plus half!
Love always,
Ashley lynn

Oh i must!

Wed, 18 May 2005 20:47:48 GMT

Wow! today i had one of the best days in a long time thanks to Megalyn, Leigh, Ty, Derek, and Theo! Ok so we are officially S.A.K.O.S.A.! Sorry, that information is classified. Bitch!@!@!@! I know what you know that he knows the we know that you dont know that its all about the gay egyptian. Oh yes! how i L-O-V-E those people.
I love you
Ashley lynn

a survey i stole from the beautiful megalyn susanna

Thu, 12 May 2005 18:59:11 GMT

LAST PERSON WHO
x. Slept in your bed: Me. uh duh!
x. Saw you cry: not sure maybe meggiez?.
x. Made you cry: My grammas in the hospital she had to get surgery. at 2:00 today
x. You shared a drink with: im not sure a drink but i shared mashed potatoes with jackie courtney megz and ty.
x. You went to the movies with: Taz....he is such a cool kid
x. You went to the mall with: my mommy takes me shopping and buys me pretty things.

x. Yelled at you:My dad
x. Sent you an email:My grampa
HAVE YOU EVER...
x. Said "I Love You" and meant it?:i think?
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: yes, my horse.
x. Been to California:No i have never been on a plane
x. Been to Hawaii: No
x. Been to Mexico: No
x. Been to China: No
x. Been to Canada: No.

x. Danced naked:of course its the new thing! Lol
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day?: yeah it was weird
x. Wish you were the opposite sex: nope cant say i do
x. Had an imaginary friend: when i was 5!

x. Do you have a crush on someone: Yes.
x. What book are you reading now: i dont read alot of books

x. Worst feeling in the world:feeling like you just lost everything
x. Future son's name: im adopting a girl.
x Do you sleep with a stuffed animal : Not anymore
x. What's under your bed: ?who knows?
x. Favorite sport to watch: soccer all the way!
x. Siblings: 2. 2 brothers and one is leaving for college soon :'( i actually will miss him

x. Location: Florida =)
x. College plans: A cool college

x. Piercings/tattoos: i had my ears pierced in 6 different spots but had to take them out cuz of cheerleading.

EXTRA STUFF
x. Do you do drugs: no drugs are for dummies
x. Do you drink: not usually.
x. Who is your best friend[s]: MEGGIEZ, LEIGH, COURTNEY, RONI, NOELLE, JACKIE, ASHLEY,TY, ROB, CURLY AND MORE PEOPLE I MIGHT HAVE ACCIDENTLY FORGOT.
x. What are you most scared of: GETTING KILLED!
x. What clothes do you sleep in. boxers and a tank top.

x. Where do you want to get married: horseback on the beach!

x. Who do you really hate: i try not to hate people it was my new years resolution, im so pround of myself!

x. Been in Love:not sure

x. Do you drive: i can but its illegal
x. Do you have a job: yep
x. Do you like being around people: who doesnt, im not anti social if thats what that means
x. Are you for world peace: yes..
x. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with:yes
x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: Yes. for like 3 months

x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: i dont think so?
x. Want someone you don't have right now: nope

x. Are you lonely right now: no not really
x. Songs thats stuck in your head a lot: ill be there for you
x. Do you want to get married: no because if you get divorced they could take away my horses!
x. Do you want kids: im adopting a girl
FAVORITE
x. Room in house: my room
x. Color[s]: pimk, green, black,yellow,orange,all of them!
x. Perfume or cologne[s]?: whatever smells good.
x. Month: december?
x. Stone: aquamarine, diamond, emerald
IN THE LAST WEEK, HAVE YOU...
x. Cried: Yes

x. Bought something: Yes
x. Gotten sick: i am now:(
x. Sang: i always sing

x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: yes
x. Met someone new: yes
x. Missed someone: yes

x. Hugged someone: yes
x. Kissed someone: yes

? ?I N F O R M A T I O N ? ? ?
Name: Ashley lynn
Sex: girl.
Birthday: march 18
Sign: pisces
Hair colour: blonde
Eye colour: blue
Height: 5'6"???

? ? ? F A S H I O N | S T U F F ? ? ?
Where is your favourite place to shop for clothes: forever 21, pacsun, places with good clothes

Favorite designer?: im not into the whole designer thing

What is your sexiest outfit?: i dont know.
What is your most comfortable outfit? my grinch boxers and a big shirt
What do you usually wear?: clothes?

? ? ? S P E C I F I C S ? ? ?
What kind of shampoo do you use?: Blonde by John Frieda
What are you listening to right now: my keyboard
Who is the last person that called you?: Ty
How many buddies are online right now?: they are all at school but there are 37 people on
What would you change about yourself?: i dont know
? ? ? F A V O R I T E S ? ? ?
Foods: CHINESE baby!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Girls names: Madison, Tanna , Angelina

Boys names: Skylar, Bryan
Subjects in school: Dr. Dean
Animals: HORSES, dogs, cats, exotic animals.

? ? ? H A V E | Y O U | E V E R ? ? ?
Given anyone a bath?: yes i babysit this little girl hannah, shes so cute!
Smoked? no
Bungee jumped?: no , but i would LOVE to.

Made yourself throw up?: Yes
Skinny dipped?: yes
Ever been in love?: not sure
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: LOL no not me, yes i have
Pictured your crush naked?: lol
Actually seen your crush naked?: no
Cried when someone died?: i think everyone does that but the tin man
Fallen for your best friend?: Yes

Rejected someone?: Yes
Used someone?: No, i hope not

Done something you regret?: Yes
? ? ? C U R R E N T ? ? ?
Clothes: Jeans and a T- shirt, just got back from the hospital

Music: None
Annoyance: my throat hurts
Smell: perfume
Desktop picture: a rainy backround that says "who ever says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rAiN"
Cd in player: mix
DVD in player: Honey
? ? ? L A S T | P E R S O N ? ? ?
You touched: my mom

Hugged: my gramma
You IMed: meggies?
You yelled at: cant remember maybe my dad?
You kissed:
? ? ? A R E | Y O U ? ? ?
Understanding: i try

Arrogant: try not to be

Insecure: sometimes
Random: yes but not as much as meghan is
Smart: I think, i try not to be dumb.
Moody: dont know.
Hard working: if i put my mind to it
Organized: most of the time...
Shy: sometimes, when i feel out of place.

Difficult: i guess what kinda ? is that
Attractive: ?
Bored easily: yes

Obsessed: i dont know
Angry: Not really

Sad: not at the moment
? ? ? W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A ? ? ?
Kill?: i dont want to go to prison
Slap?: hmm.
Get really wasted with?: no one really, been there done that, its no fun.
Get high with: not that kinda girl

Talk to offline: Megz/ty/my GRAMMA
Talk to online: everyone
Sex it up with: these ? remind me of one josh would ask!

? ? ? R A N D O M ? ? ?
In the morning I: put my pillow over my head and ask my mom for 5 more minutes
All you need is: time, family,friends, love
Love is: hurtful and awesome
What do you notice first in the sex you're into: sincerity.

? ? ? W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R ? ? ?
Coke or Pepsi: Coke
Flowers or candy: flowers
Tall or short: short, im taller then everyone!

? ? ? W H O ? ? ?
Makes you laugh the most: meggies
Makes you smile: lots of people
Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: my friends
Of times I have had my heart broken: once
Of hearts I have broken: one? i didnt mean it i love you!

Of scars on my body: 7
? ? ? Y O U R | T H O U G H T S ? ? ?
I know: nothing
I want: to see the future
I have: great people in my life
I wish: everything would turn out okay.

I hate: people that talk about you behind your back then deny it.
I hear: sound?

I search: seriously what kind of questions are these
I wonder: whats the purpose of life

Tue, 10 May 2005 23:58:08 GMT

The school year has definately been interesting. There was some great times and some hard times but overall it was definately unforgettable. But
school is nearing its end and summer is getting closer. I am happy and sad at the same time. Im gonna miss seeing my friends every day because i love you guys so much, but ill be able to do more stuff because we wont be at school seven hours a day. But since school is so close to being out i want to say somethings. I owe everything to my friends. I could not have made it through one second of the year if you guys werent by my side. I know there was alot of drama throughout the year but it was a great time to find out who your true friends are. Im not going to name certain people because i think that every one of you have helped me be a better person. But i would also like to thank my best friends for helping me through life in the times that it gott tough. I owe that all to you guys. Im gonna be sad the year is over but every good thing must come to an end. I also want to take them time to say that i love you guys so much and if it werent for you i would have never made it. I wish you guys knew how much you all meant to me.
WITH ALL MY LOVE,
ASHLEY LYNN

subjectless

Mon, 09 May 2005 02:01:14 GMT

How do you get that lonely?
How do you hurt that bad?
To make the call that having no life at all is better then the life you had
How do you feel so empty, that you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely,.....and nobody know.

Wow do i love that song.. the begining is so sad it goes something like this

It was jsut another story written on the second page underneath the tigers football score. It said he was only eighteen a boy about my age. they found him face down on his bedroom floor

There'll be services on friday at the Lawence funeral home
then out on mooresville highway they'll lay him beneath a stone

Then the chorus

Wow thats amazing, it is such a sad song

okay....

Thu, 05 May 2005 23:31:18 GMT

Today was interesting...... and here are all my thoughts on this and that will be all. Meghan ,Leigh,Noelle, and Shanley, I love you guys so much thank you so much for being there for me no matter what.Roni ,i love you i know what you mean, i love you so much. Lauren all i have to say is im truely sorry i hurt you, but im also sorry that you hurt me too. Im not posting a bunch of shit because it will only start drama and do NO good. So if your just gona post anonymous comments about how much i suck, THANKS I LOVE YOU TOO!

<3 always
Ashley

the time has come

Sun, 01 May 2005 00:31:11 GMT

I have been thinking alot about friendships lately and how much they mean to me. Meghan thank you so much for being there for me. Roni i love your advice thank you for being there for me also.

But i also have been thinking that i need to be careful with friendship because nothing is as it seems. You think you know something and it turns out to be the exact opposite. I think i just need some time alone to think things through. Im not happy and i think i just need to get my thoughts together and all....

omg!!!

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 01:21:38 GMT

OMFG i had jsut realized that i forgot JOSHUA WOOD!!!!!! joshua i love you so much i never forget you and i cant believe i did!!!!! I love you so freaking much!!!

hmmmm :/

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 01:15:26 GMT

I just got back from 4 wheeling and then i drove the 4wheeler to the place that the thing is gonna be tomm. to help set up the course, FUN! in the morning is the S.E.A. Poker Run. It is so much fun....you ride (on horses) this 5 mile trail and go to 5 different buckets and pick up cards and whoever has the best poker hand at the end wins! Exciting huh! Then im going to the movies with the TaZiO<3! Fun anyways i have a couple things i need to say about things that are happening.

Meggiez- Im so glad your back but now im sick!!!!! Eh its all your fault!!! Just kidding babe i love you so much i missed you alot.

L- im so glad we got everything sorted out and i hope you get everything straightened out with everyone else too. I love you so much babe you are so awesome

Tazio- What can i say your awesome :D <3 you

Roni- Im glad we get to talk now

Leigh- I love you so much babe!! you are so much fun

Mollie- I love you so much we have become so much closer!!

Jackie-s I love you sweetie

Noelle- I love you, you too hyper of a kid!

Amanda Cooper- Amanda i have decided im coming with you and you cant do anything about it! ive always wanted to go to england:)

Suzanne- you are so funny-i love you

Ty- Ive known you for two years and you are such a flipping awesome person

Rob- beside your ability to tickle the hell out of me you are alright;) just kidding i love you

Granty- My little short buddy! i lvoe you so much!!

Curly- sorry for stealing your food all the time but you know i love you!!

Daniel- try keeping your powerade in your hands and not getting it all over me:) LOL i love you!

i know i have forgotten people thats inevitabel but i love all of you and if i forgot you i will surely add yuo in on the next entry

<3 Ashley lynn

love and be loved

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 00:36:35 GMT

Ehhhh!!!! I got spacers today and they hurt so bad. One of the only good things about today was i got to talk to Taz for a while. But anyways I heard from one of my longtime friends today, but its too bad things show up at the most inoppertune times. Maybe they are just supposed to be like this. I could live forever like the way it is right now and im not gonna let anything screw it up. It seems like lately everything has been working out for me with my friends and all. I hope you feel the same way. Right now i am singing to BRITTNEY SPEARS AND ASHLEE SIMPSON...lol. Sometimes there songs just make me happy! Im not sure what else to right but comment if you love me
i love you so much taz!
<3 Ashley lynn

this and that

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 00:56:57 GMT

Ok i have alot to say. First i want to say that i love noelle and im very sorry that your hurt, but another thing about the Livejournals. Im so tired of peoples annonymous comments trashing other people. Im not saying i never have because i think everyone is guilty of it at one point. But i try as hard as i can to tell the person i have a problem with my problem because that way gossip and crap doesnt start. Also trying to fix everything or trashing some one to make someone else feel better doesnt always make you feel better it sometimes takes time. I love all of you and you guys are so supportive but sometimes you just have to let things run their course
<3 ALWAYS
ASHLEY LYNN

P.S. Taz i love you so much!

I LOVE YOU

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 01:57:00 GMT

Wow yesterday i had like the worst day ever. As soon as i got home from school my mom told me i had to work and that my plans were ruined. Then i got to work and got yelled at on the phone by someone i had no idea who he was, then he came in and threatened me (over a stupid pizza??) Then my brothers put anchovies in my soda(eww!!im terrified of them!!) Then this girl lied so she got to leave b4 me then on my way inside my house i fell and spilled my drink everywhere( im such a dork!!) then when i got inside i set my food down to get the phone and my dog ate it!!!! But the end of the day was great! And now i feel so much better. Except i dont really get to do anything this weekend which sucks because i had to get my horse washed and clipped and everything (ill tell you about his bath in a minute) And tommorrow i get to wake up at like 4:30 and go to a horse show all day!!
Oh ya about the bath!!
Being that my horse is retarded when ever i give himm a bath i end up getting more wet then he does. And it was so cold and i got all wet and dirty!! but it was fun!!
<3 Ashley lynn
<3*<3* TaZ *<3*<3

its alright

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 21:16:00 GMT

everything is all right now. i talked to the people i needed to talk to and got advice from some of the people i love and trust most and now everything is okay. I havent been happier in a while then i am right now because everything is alot clearer. I want to special dedicate this update to my friends being if i didnt have then then i wouldnt be who i am today. Im not naming any certain names so idont forget anyone because i love you all and you guys know who you are anyways. My friends have picked me up when ive fallen on my ass and have cared for me more then i would ever expect anyone to. i just want to let ALL of you no that all you have to do is need me and ill be there for you jsut like you guys were for me. Ive also became alot better friends with some people that i wasnt as good of friends with before and have become even closer with my really good ones. I want all of you guys to know how important you guys are to me because with out you i dont know what i'd do. I have never been closer to any group of people in my life I hope you all feel the same way. I love you guys so incredibly much!!!!
<3 FOREVER AND ALWAYS
Ashley lynn

you cant help who you love....

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 00:43:27 GMT

so im getting married and running away to barcelona:) great huh!anyways......ive been thinking some more and im pretty sure that i have no clue. Im really confused right now and unsure of what im going to do but ill figure it out sometime.Its just that whatever i do in any case people are going to get hurt. Its not easy when your dealing with other peoples feelings not to mention your own. I realize that no one can help me on this and i have to figure it out myself but it feels good just to get it off my chest. Well im off to do alot more thinking.........
<3 Ashley lynn