[17 Jul 2005|02:39pm] LaRocque Mink Dean Mrs. Gordon Shweig Karr 2 die happy

[13 Jul 2005|10:10pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | shes somebody's hero ] im so lost right now. eveything just happened so fast. No i feel really emotionless. I hate not being able to feel anything and thats exactly what i feel like. it doesnt reall make sense but neither does anything else. i dont know whats gonna happen so i just want to say i love you guys so much. 2 die happy

[05 Jul 2005|09:50pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | real world austin bitch! ] It feels good to be back in my routine. I go to the gym everyday sometimes twice a day so when i went on vacation i only got to go twice. It was a big change. But now im back into my rountine and it feels good. The gym is possibly the best thing i got into this year. It helps relieve stress and keep me fit. I love it so much. I have been really busy lately so i havent got to update but thats okay because not much is going on. I started rding again too. I hadnt been on a my horse in like a month it felt so weird because i normally ride atleast twice a week. Everything finally is getting back to normal and its nice. I was suposed to go to the movies tonight but i didnt. i wont get into that. but im going to go like next monday or something so its all good. I cant write to much because real world austin comes on in five minutes Oh yeah i got my cartilige pierced again. It kept healing because i had to take it out for cheerleading but now i dont so after it being pierced for the fourth time i think it will finally stay in <3 Ashley lynn die happy

[01 Jul 2005|09:44pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | back at one ] a n g e r section. Do you have a quick temper?: not in my opinion, i keep it to myself when im mad What do you do when you're mad?:i go somewhere that i can be by myself What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?:hmm yell and slam doors, thats about it. If you can take back time, would you have never done this?: i dont really have anything else to do Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: i dont think so Ever physically hurt someone when you were mad?: i dont think so Do you curse when you're mad?: yes c r y i n g section. When was the last time you really cried your heart out?: yesterday Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: yes Ever cried over the opposite sex?: yes Do you cry when you get an injury?: if it is really bad Do certain songs make you cry? yes Can you make yourself cry?: yes p a i n section. What's the hardest thing you've ever had to go through?: losing someone i loved What's the worst thing you've done to yourself?: lots but i think its pretty What's the worst thing you've done to somebody else?: hurt their feelings not physical Ever had a painful break up?: yes What about the old 'pain for pleasure'?: i love it How depressed can you get?: pretty depressed. do you inflict pain on yourself?: yes h a p p y section. Are you normally a happy person?: sometimes What can make you happy?: family friends, love Do you wish you were happier?: yes What makes you the happiest?: when everythings okay Is being happy overrated?: no i wish i was What about being with your friends: does that make you happy?: yes Can music make you happy?: yes l o v e section. How many times have you had your heart broken?: once...twice? Do you still have feelings for any of your old significant others?: i still love them but not like that Have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd die for them?: i think so Did you ever love a girl, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' as a reply?: no and if you mean guy, no Ever loved someone so much, it hurt and made you cry?: yes Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?: yes and it made me so happy Ever stopped a relationship because they didn't say 'i love you'?: no h a t e section. Who do you actually hate?: i try not to hate anyone Ever made a hit list?: no but sounds like something i would have done in first grade Have you ever been on a hit list?: ive never really heard of a "hit list" You a mean bully?: no you hate any one that breaks your heart?: no but it hurts you hate George Bush?: no me section. Is your self-esteem extremely low?: not all the time Do you believe in yourself?: sometimes People say they think you are pretty, do you deny you are? yes are you one that thinks they're ugly, dumb, and fat?: i think i could always be skinnier Ever wanted to kill yourself because you thought you weren't good enough?: not kill my self but hurt myself Are you happy with who you are?: sometimes Do you wish you can be someone else?: sometimes i wish i could get out of my skin not neccessarily be someone else die happy

[25 Jun 2005|10:38am] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | kiss me ] Wow i cant believe im leaving for vacation TODAY! im SO excited! but first i would like to wish the lovely CJ a happy birthday! And hope Lauren Jackie and Mollie a great time in tennesse and at camp. Everything has been so crazy between packing and saying goodbye and taking care of my animals but its finally time to leave! Im only gonna be gone for a week but its nice to get away and take a break from everything for a week. Well i hope nothing to exciting happens while im gone and i will see all of you in a week P.S. My cell will be on the entire time so call me if you want to talk. <3 Ashley lynn die happy

[23 Jun 2005|05:57pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | She never lets it go to her heart ] Im leaving for Crystal Beach in two days! Hell yeah bitch! I cant wait its gonna be so much fun. Just hangin out and meet new people. I cant think of a better way to spend part of the summer. I will miss you guys too! I think getting away from it all will help clear my head, im better already just thinking about it. Anyways i hope everyone is having a great summer, mine got out to a sucky start but im doing okay now. I cant believe school is gonna be starting in like a month, it seems like we just got out. It will be nice to see my friends everyday again but i hope this year isnt as drama filled as last year. Alot of people will be leaving to different high schools so we wont have time to fight. Well i have to go pack for crystal beach!! I will have my cell on so make sure you call <3 Ashley lynn 3 die happy

[18 Jun 2005|09:57pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | Matchbox 20 ] Im leaving for vacation in a week! Can you believe it?!?! Icant but that also means that i need to hang out with EVERYONE before i go because i will miss you guys. Today was okay i woke up went to the gym and went to work. Not exactyl the most exciting day of summer but thats okay. I havent talked to anyone on the phone today. Hmm i dont like it. Well im gonna call someone now so i guess ill update later With <3 Ashley lynn 1 die happy

[14 Jun 2005|07:53am] Well im almost ready to leave for disney!!! Its gonna be so much fun. It will take my mind off things for a little while. And they even have a gym!! YAY! Eh well i have to leave really soon so ill see yall later but ill have my cell on the entire time so ring it up!! Love Ashley lynn 2 die happy

[11 Jun 2005|09:21pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | ill be there for you -my wedding song ] First of all i give props to the people who update like 3 times a day because i can barely update once a week. But anyways, I have been really confused lately and im trying my best to sort out my feelings but i just cant figure it out. Maybe it will get better over time or something. I sure how so because it isdriving me insane. I try and focus on one thing and it seems like i cant concentrate or focus on it. It scares me a little bit. I have been going to the gym alot lately. I think it really helps me get rid of alot of stress. If i werent going there i think i would be alot more stressed out and confused. Also the whole buddypic.com thing or whatever were everyone thinks its me. I dont know because i cant see it for some reason but i have never heard of that site so i dont know how it could be unless someone else put it there. Hmm more confusing stuff i have to think about. Ill save that one for the gym tommorrow. Peace Ashley lynn 2 die happy

[09 Jun 2005|10:58pm] [ mood | worse ] This week might have been the worst week of my entire life. I just lost the two people i cared the most about in the same day. And that was jsut TODAY. It hurts so bad and i dont even no want to do. Im so sorry for causing this type of pain to anyone if i did because it is unbearable. Im not sure what im gonna do next... 4 die happy

[02 Jun 2005|10:50pm] I havent updated in a while because i have been really busy. Alot has happened this summer so far and its not even close to being over. I will put some of it on here but ive finally realized livejournals cause drama and drauma over summer is dumb (i dont think it exsists). But i will say that today i joined the gym! This summer i plan to get in shape and be healthy. I hope all of you guys are having a great summer, mine isnt exactly special but i hope your is.Give me a call sometime or something! <3 Ashley lynn 2 die happy

[20 May 2005|10:48pm] I just got back from my brothers graduation. Wow it was amazing, i cant believe he will be leaving soon. Im gonna miss him so much. It also made me realize that after we are seniors we will probally never see these people again so there is no use wasting time over getting angry. This year has gone by so fast. Its pretty much over and i never got to do some of the things i wanted to and say some of the things i wanted to say. This year has been dramatic but it has made me change so much. I love most of you with all my heart and some of with with all my heart plus half! Love always, Ashley lynn 2 die happy

Oh i must! [18 May 2005|04:43pm] [ mood | YaY ] [ music | s.a.k.o.s.a. bitch ] Wow! today i had one of the best days in a long time thanks to Megalyn, Leigh, Ty, Derek, and Theo! Ok so we are officially S.A.K.O.S.A.! Sorry, that information is classified. Bitch!@!@!@! I know what you know that he knows the we know that you dont know that its all about the gay egyptian. Oh yes! how i L-O-V-E those people. I love you Ashley lynn 2 die happy

a survey i stole from the beautiful megalyn susanna [12 May 2005|02:58pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | none ] LAST PERSON WHO x. Slept in your bed: Me. uh duh! x. Saw you cry: not sure maybe meggiez?. x. Made you cry: My grammas in the hospital she had to get surgery. at 2:00 today x. You shared a drink with: im not sure a drink but i shared mashed potatoes with jackie courtney megz and ty. x. You went to the movies with: Taz....he is such a cool kid x. You went to the mall with: my mommy takes me shopping and buys me pretty things. x. Yelled at you:My dad x. Sent you an email:My grampa HAVE YOU EVER... x. Said "I Love You" and meant it?:i think? x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: yes, my horse. x. Been to California:No i have never been on a plane x. Been to Hawaii: No x. Been to Mexico: No x. Been to China: No x. Been to Canada: No. x. Danced naked:of course its the new thing! Lol x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day?: yeah it was weird x. Wish you were the opposite sex: nope cant say i do x. Had an imaginary friend: when i was 5! x. Do you have a crush on someone: Yes. x. What book are you reading now: i dont read alot of books x. Worst feeling in the world:feeling like you just lost everything x. Future son's name: im adopting a girl. x Do you sleep with a stuffed animal : Not anymore x. What's under your bed: ?who knows? x. Favorite sport to watch: soccer all the way! x. Siblings: 2. 2 brothers and one is leaving for college soon :'( i actually will miss him x. Location: Florida =) x. College plans: A cool college x. Piercings/tattoos: i had my ears pierced in 6 different spots but had to take them out cuz of cheerleading. EXTRA STUFF x. Do you do drugs: no drugs are for dummies x. Do you drink: not usually. x. Who is your best friend[s]: MEGGIEZ, LEIGH, COURTNEY, RONI, NOELLE, JACKIE, ASHLEY,TY, ROB, CURLY AND MORE PEOPLE I MIGHT HAVE ACCIDENTLY FORGOT. x. What are you most scared of: GETTING KILLED! x. What clothes do you sleep in. boxers and a tank top. x. Where do you want to get married: horseback on the beach! x. Who do you really hate: i try not to hate people it was my new years resolution, im so pround of myself! x. Been in Love:not sure x. Do you drive: i can but its illegal x. Do you have a job: yep x. Do you like being around people: who doesnt, im not anti social if thats what that means x. Are you for world peace: yes.. x. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with:yes x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: Yes. for like 3 months x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: i dont think so? x. Want someone you don't have right now: nope x. Are you lonely right now: no not really x. Songs thats stuck in your head a lot: ill be there for you x. Do you want to get married: no because if you get divorced they could take away my horses! x. Do you want kids: im adopting a girl FAVORITE x. Room in house: my room x. Color[s]: pimk, green, black,yellow,orange,all of them! x. Perfume or cologne[s]?: whatever smells good. x. Month: december? x. Stone: aquamarine, diamond, emerald IN THE LAST WEEK, HAVE YOU... x. Cried: Yes x. Bought something: Yes x. Gotten sick: i am now:( x. Sang: i always sing x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: yes x. Met someone new: yes x. Missed someone: yes x. Hugged someone: yes x. Kissed someone: yes ? ?I N F O R M A T I O N ? ? ? Name: Ashley lynn Sex: girl. Birthday: march 18 Sign: pisces Hair colour: blonde Eye colour: blue Height: 5'6"??? ? ? ? F A S H I O N | S T U F F ? ? ? Where is your favourite place to shop for clothes: forever 21, pacsun, places with good clothes Favorite designer?: im not into the whole designer thing What is your sexiest outfit?: i dont know. What is your most comfortable outfit? my grinch boxers and a big shirt What do you usually wear?: clothes? ? ? ? S P E C I F I C S ? ? ? What kind of shampoo do you use?: Blonde by John Frieda What are you listening to right now: my keyboard Who is the last person that called you?: Ty How many buddies are online right now?: they are all at school but there are 37 people on What would you change about yourself?: i dont know ? ? ? F A V O R I T E S ? ? ? Foods: CHINESE baby!!!!!!!!!!!!1 Girls names: Madison, Tanna , Angelina Boys names: Skylar, Bryan Subjects in school: Dr. Dean Animals: HORSES, dogs, cats, exotic animals. ? ? ? H A V E | Y O U | E V E R ? ? ? Given anyone a bath?: yes i babysit this little girl hannah, shes so cute! Smoked? no Bungee jumped?: no , but i would LOVE to. Made yourself throw up?: Yes Skinny dipped?: yes Ever been in love?: not sure Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: LOL no not me, yes i have Pictured your crush naked?: lol Actually seen your crush naked?: no Cried when someone died?: i think everyone does that but the tin man Fallen for your best friend?: Yes Rejected someone?: Yes Used someone?: No, i hope not Done something you regret?: Yes ? ? ? C U R R E N T ? ? ? Clothes: Jeans and a T- shirt, just got back from the hospital Music: None Annoyance: my throat hurts Smell: perfume Desktop picture: a rainy backround that says "who ever says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rAiN" Cd in player: mix DVD in player: Honey ? ? ? L A S T | P E R S O N ? ? ? You touched: my mom Hugged: my gramma You IMed: meggies? You yelled at: cant remember maybe my dad? You kissed: ? ? ? A R E | Y O U ? ? ? Understanding: i try Arrogant: try not to be Insecure: sometimes Random: yes but not as much as meghan is Smart: I think, i try not to be dumb. Moody: dont know. Hard working: if i put my mind to it Organized: most of the time... Shy: sometimes, when i feel out of place. Difficult: i guess what kinda ? is that Attractive: ? Bored easily: yes Obsessed: i dont know Angry: Not really Sad: not at the moment ? ? ? W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A ? ? ? Kill?: i dont want to go to prison Slap?: hmm. Get really wasted with?: no one really, been there done that, its no fun. Get high with: not that kinda girl Talk to offline: Megz/ty/my GRAMMA Talk to online: everyone Sex it up with: these ? remind me of one josh would ask! ? ? ? R A N D O M ? ? ? In the morning I: put my pillow over my head and ask my mom for 5 more minutes All you need is: time, family,friends, love Love is: hurtful and awesome What do you notice first in the sex you're into: sincerity. ? ? ? W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R ? ? ? Coke or Pepsi: Coke Flowers or candy: flowers Tall or short: short, im taller then everyone! ? ? ? W H O ? ? ? Makes you laugh the most: meggies Makes you smile: lots of people Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: my friends Of times I have had my heart broken: once Of hearts I have broken: one? i didnt mean it i love you! Of scars on my body: 7 ? ? ? Y O U R | T H O U G H T S ? ? ? I know: nothing I want: to see the future I have: great people in my life I wish: everything would turn out okay. I hate: people that talk about you behind your back then deny it. I hear: sound? I search: seriously what kind of questions are these I wonder: whats the purpose of life 3 die happy

[10 May 2005|07:43pm] [ mood | thinking about it all ] [ music | wrong way- sublime ] The school year has definately been interesting. There was some great times and some hard times but overall it was definately unforgettable. But school is nearing its end and summer is getting closer. I am happy and sad at the same time. Im gonna miss seeing my friends every day because i love you guys so much, but ill be able to do more stuff because we wont be at school seven hours a day. But since school is so close to being out i want to say somethings. I owe everything to my friends. I could not have made it through one second of the year if you guys werent by my side. I know there was alot of drama throughout the year but it was a great time to find out who your true friends are. Im not going to name certain people because i think that every one of you have helped me be a better person. But i would also like to thank my best friends for helping me through life in the times that it gott tough. I owe that all to you guys. Im gonna be sad the year is over but every good thing must come to an end. I also want to take them time to say that i love you guys so much and if it werent for you i would have never made it. I wish you guys knew how much you all meant to me. WITH ALL MY LOVE, ASHLEY LYNN die happy

subjectless [08 May 2005|09:54pm] [ music | lonely ] How do you get that lonely? How do you hurt that bad? To make the call that having no life at all is better then the life you had How do you feel so empty, that you want to let it all go How do you get that lonely,.....and nobody know. Wow do i love that song.. the begining is so sad it goes something like this It was jsut another story written on the second page underneath the tigers football score. It said he was only eighteen a boy about my age. they found him face down on his bedroom floor There'll be services on friday at the Lawence funeral home then out on mooresville highway they'll lay him beneath a stone Then the chorus Wow thats amazing, it is such a sad song 1 die happy

okay.... [05 May 2005|07:23pm] [ mood | lovely? ] [ music | -story of the girl- ] Today was interesting...... and here are all my thoughts on this and that will be all. Meghan ,Leigh,Noelle, and Shanley, I love you guys so much thank you so much for being there for me no matter what.Roni ,i love you i know what you mean, i love you so much. Lauren all i have to say is im truely sorry i hurt you, but im also sorry that you hurt me too. Im not posting a bunch of shit because it will only start drama and do NO good. So if your just gona post anonymous comments about how much i suck, THANKS I LOVE YOU TOO! <3 always Ashley 5 die happy

the time has come [30 Apr 2005|08:22pm] I have been thinking alot about friendships lately and how much they mean to me. Meghan thank you so much for being there for me. Roni i love your advice thank you for being there for me also. But i also have been thinking that i need to be careful with friendship because nothing is as it seems. You think you know something and it turns out to be the exact opposite. I think i just need some time alone to think things through. Im not happy and i think i just need to get my thoughts together and all.... 4 die happy

omg!!! [23 Apr 2005|09:20pm] OMFG i had jsut realized that i forgot JOSHUA WOOD!!!!!! joshua i love you so much i never forget you and i cant believe i did!!!!! I love you so freaking much!!! die happy

hmmmm :/ [23 Apr 2005|08:59pm] [ mood | lala ] I just got back from 4 wheeling and then i drove the 4wheeler to the place that the thing is gonna be tomm. to help set up the course, FUN! in the morning is the S.E.A. Poker Run. It is so much fun....you ride (on horses) this 5 mile trail and go to 5 different buckets and pick up cards and whoever has the best poker hand at the end wins! Exciting huh! Then im going to the movies with the TaZiO<3! Fun anyways i have a couple things i need to say about things that are happening. Meggiez- Im so glad your back but now im sick!!!!! Eh its all your fault!!! Just kidding babe i love you so much i missed you alot. L- im so glad we got everything sorted out and i hope you get everything straightened out with everyone else too. I love you so much babe you are so awesome Tazio- What can i say your awesome :D <3 you Roni- Im glad we get to talk now Leigh- I love you so much babe!! you are so much fun Mollie- I love you so much we have become so much closer!! Jackie-s I love you sweetie Noelle- I love you, you too hyper of a kid! Amanda Cooper- Amanda i have decided im coming with you and you cant do anything about it! ive always wanted to go to england:) Suzanne- you are so funny-i love you Ty- Ive known you for two years and you are such a flipping awesome person Rob- beside your ability to tickle the hell out of me you are alright;) just kidding i love you Granty- My little short buddy! i lvoe you so much!! Curly- sorry for stealing your food all the time but you know i love you!! Daniel- try keeping your powerade in your hands and not getting it all over me:) LOL i love you! i know i have forgotten people thats inevitabel but i love all of you and if i forgot you i will surely add yuo in on the next entry <3 Ashley lynn 3 die happy

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